Just me^^

(Orginal written yesturday)

I am taking a break on the spiritual stuff I am ranting abaut, peapole I know will realy think I am nust.... XD

So...I have made a realy annoying mistake... On this site you need a damn google pasword to log in, and I created a new e-mail that is only for private stuff.
But on youtube I have my old google adress, so.... I can't be on the two sites at once! D:

I need music when I write!

Damn! XD

You know what I want? All the Snoopy movies and episodes on DVD, and the Norwegian dub to, it's pretty good and since I gre up whit it, I prefere that^^

I am in love whit this song:

To bad this type of music has died out D: It's beautifull, and I prefere it over mutch else!

On my way home today I saw a cloud shaped just like my dead rabbit... It was realy beautifull, I realy miss her. *Real tears in my eyes*

Somhow I realy feel like Charlie somthimes XD

And I do belive that everyone has a lttle (or bigg) Charlie Brown in them :3
(Finaly reunited whit my friends! I'll write abaut it somthiem soon)

Weard dreams

I had two dreams last night, two kinda weard dreams.

The first one was so real, yet dreamy. I woke up, I looked up at the night sky and there where hundreds of space ships. However, I just remember one of them. The bigest one, it was  a cloud ship.

(A space ship diskyesed as a cloud. It looked somthing like this...)

I think I told my mom in my dream. I was little scared abaut all the space ships, it was kinda unbelivable seeing all these space ships in the sky.
There where more cloudships there, and more "normal" ships. But this was the only one I coud proparly remember... The others I just remember as blinking objects.
This one spoke to me, I can remember quite what it was, but somthing like "We will always be here if you need us" Or somthing...
I don't remember mutch.... But I felt a sort of connection whit this ship.. It was the biggest up there...

The other dream was just me going out, I fell an notice that there was Snow everywhere! In AUGUST!!! I started taking pictures of some threes, who turned out to be Trolls... So I had to get away ... XD

What you realy want...

Latly I have been thinking... What do I REALY want...

I want peace. I don't realy need what I have, I don't want to live the way I do now. But I can't change it right now ether.
Well...I CAN but I woud have to run away from my city and society...

What I want is and adventurus life. To live in the cuntry. Growing up in the ciry I have never liked it, I have always longed for the free life on the cuntry.
And trust me, the Norwegian cuntry side is Beautifull. I can imagen, taking huors long walks in the woods, seeing nature and animals.
Exploring places I have never seen before.

Of course, I do love tecnology, and it has given me mutch in life. Insperation, Music and all that... But it's not somthing I need.
I do love watching Bleach an all that. But there is so mutch more to life out there. I want to live. Becouse living a city life is not what I call 'living'

It's like..... I dunno... It's now how you shoud live. You grow up in school, raised like everyone else, whit hundreds of other children. As you get older you must choose a "jobb" like everyone else in the society.
Then you get your jobb, you work and get payed. You buy a apartement, pherhaps find a partner and get some kids.
You raise your kid, you watch them grow, then you get old. Then when you are old enough you die.... For me... That's not the way to live my life.
I am one of those few that feels kinda traped by today's society.


Latly I have been reading a lot of what I belive in, at the Ashtar command site, abaut the awkaning and all that... I am not realy "Afraid"... more unshure and nervus. Becouse I am not confident what it means to be "Awakend" I don't know if I am awaken, half awakend or not awakend at all.

But I think I am mentaly prepared of the changes that might happens. I feel alone, shure I do, but I also feel a happiensees whithin me.
I have felt so mutch love latly, for everything. Everything in existance. Does that mean I am redy, I realy don't know.

I know things will change very soon, I think we all can feel it.
But I am not afraid. Just anxcius.
I am young, I don't have mutch to lose, there fore I don't have mutch to fear... But the thing I have is my mom, rabbit and my friends.
Of course I will be worried abaut them. I don't have a child or lover.

I am kinda worried that I will somhow "fail" this thing... I hope I have streangt enought to help myself trugh this. It woud be nice to have somone by my side, but somethings you must do all by yourself. One must be able to help onself.

An advice is always Medatating... But I have a problem whit medetating... It's not realy my thing. I like to fantasize to music and daydream... I have serius problems "Emthying" my head. It's always full of thoughts!
But not everyday thought. I wonder abaut the world, I go to my fantasy univers and my characters that I love so mutch...

Meditation is not my thing... Is that bad?.. I am young... am I TO young for this? .... When I took Aura photos I remember the guy looking into my eyes and said "Here whe have an old soul yes, a very old soul" .... I don't think I am very "young" in that sense.
But in this life, my body and mind is human... My needs are human... etc.

Lol, again peapole around me will think i am ether very weard or have mental isshues... Anyway XD

I hope everything will be okay. There is nothing I want more than be happy, and bring other joy, explore the world have fun, help others and all that^^

I have my sins, like watching redicolusly bloody Anime, and things like that. But honastly, I care and concerne very little abaut that since I have so mutch love and there is so mutch "light" stuff I like. If I where to listen to only drak music and where intrested in demons and wore only black clothes and brought other peapole misury..... Then it woud probably be a bigg deal XD
I belive that blody Anime represent the past cruelty of the human race... But latly I have seen that change. And that make me so happy.
It's funny how somthing cruel these times are met whit so mutch love. Times has changed, that woud rarly happen before.

I am thinking abaut Norway now. I have seen change in my peapole, my cuntry. Peapole have become more kind, more compassionate, more open.
I remember telling my mom when I where mutch younger "I think if somone hate you, want to beat you up etc, that if you just love them, and smile to them and always act kind to them they will just give up aventualy"

...... It will happen when it happens, I can't stop it and I don't want to stop it. Change is needed, change is balance and it will always and are always happening!

*Looong sigh*

I realy needed to get that out I supose....

Peace be whit you all~ Kiara.

New banner.

cheshire_me from BA made this wonderfull KuuIchi banner! X3

Uploading it here so I can us it at BA!

Helping myself

It's not easy beeing a teenager.

Everyone around you can be so immature and all that, some don't know how to take care of themselvs. I have always feelt kinda outside the normal teenage life.
I am more of a loner, and I never fit quite inn.

The whole party, and lovers, and all that stuff never was me. I am more happy thinking abaut life, listening to music all by myself.
But ofcourse that can get depressing when I am all by myself. Peapole tell me I shoud live life when I can. I will not be a teenager again.
But I say "I don' want to be a teenager, I want to grow up and be a responsibel adult"
No one takes a teenager wanting to be an adult seriusly XD

I do have so many peapole around me trying to help me beeing more..."Normal" and I am realy thankfull, the thing is... I don't realy want to be normal.
I want to be me.

I have been having a rough time latly, all these teenage emotions and mood svings, depression. It's normall for teenagers. But honastly, it's my fault.
I am realy having a hard time beeing happy, and then I end up conplaining and writing emo stuff here in my blogg.

Even if I don't realy WANT to do that. I just want to be happy and energic. So............ Let's try again once more shall we?
I will be happy and optemisic!

You know, every since I was little I always liked beeing whit adult rather than playing whit kids. I think pherhaps I need some adult friends^^ Ofcourse I shoud have soome teenage friends to, but I reealy want some "Alternatve" adult friends.

I realy dubht any of my teenage friends will want to talk abaut me and all my Spiritual and Alien stuff.

I joined the Asthar command crew blogg, pherhaps I can find some good frinds there? I realy hope so, and I realy want to avoid any uncomftable dicussuins!

Love and Space, Kiara-chan!

NOW I'm starting to get nervus.

I have this thing latly, that I am not nervus abaut anything before the day before or when it happeens -.-

I am not in school yet and I allredy wanna go home! And I AM home! D:

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I am so stressed now, I need to wrte somthing but I don't know what to write!!!

Soon I will probably start to bleed like a pigg! TT3TT

Need laugther! Need laughter!!!

................... I'll wrtie more. I must and I want to!

Is it possible to have a sort of crush on your own character?

I am kinda a loner so maby I am just crazy...... But it's not reealy like beeing in love. Mor like feeling the kind of love my two character have for echother...

I love my William so mutch! <3

And my Kiara (the orginal one, not me)

And my Sigmund!

And my Venus!

I sort of live for my own fantasie and characters, somethimes I feel like thats what reealy is keeping me going, always...

Kiara you are so weard -.-

I'm home...

I'm home from my trip to Denmark - Copenhaven. Denmark realy is as flat as they say, flat but pretty. I liked the houses a lot. But I coud never live there, I love the Mountans and Fjords back home here in Norway^^

It's probably becouse I am realy tierd and am abaut to have my period... beouse I feel realy depressed right now...

School starts the day afther tomorrow... I am not nervus, I supose I won't be before the day. I am not happy abaut it, I have to sswitch school again. Becouse I am a looser, simple as that.
I always lose.
And I am a redicalucly nervus wreck. I probably won't get any new friends.

And becouse I am feeling like shit right now, and becouse I am a a teenagers (Yuk) I feel like saying this:
No one likes me. There is just somthing abaut me that make peapole stay away. I am trying to be friendly and all that but.....
Maby I amb to chatty, to open but nervus... I have so few reel friend, and I barly see them.  No-one ever friend me online. etc.
No one admiers me, and I am pretty shure that no body have ever had a crush on me when I was growing up...

But still, someow I manage to stay happy moast of the time. I always manage to entertain myself. I do supose I am sort of a loner. I do know how to entertain myself...
But I do LOVE getting to know peapole, I realy do.

To be as honest ast honast can be... what I realy want is to be more respected. I realy lack that in life, I have not  asingle person that "respects" me or look up to me. Since I am a lonly child I don't have a younger sister or brother to do that.

Some times you need some respect and admiration. But I have absolutly nothing that peapole can respect. Moast of my friends are respected and admierd becouse of their drawing skills.
But I can't draw, and I don't realy want to ether.

The only thing I actualy coud be respected of is my writing. But that's not to easy ether whit my Dyslexia... You know, in times like this I feel like a useless nobody...

But maby someday... someday...

Anyway... Here is some videoes of my favourite scientist:

He is a famus and respected scientist

Soooo... I want home to mom to get the pens I had forgotten. First I forgott the Letter paper, then the men, man was a loser I am D:
I feel so bad, my letter to Jenny will be so late! D': Sorry!!! >o<


A few days ago I started watching Hell Girl, it has no blood but ether way it's awesome! I have realy become addicted to Horror Anime :3
Funny, becouse before I used to avoice these things. I wanted nothing to do whit horror and blood. But now I am lusting for it! >:D

                                             
                                                 This serie is realy addictive! :3

And Lol! I found a Live Action verson! XD

Oh man, just when I though: "I need to listen to more vestern music" I happend to find a new awesome song from my old favourite band:

I keep forgetting my old favourite bands. I need to start listen to these guys again. I just love Travis, and I used to totaly love Linkin Park and Fort Minor...

I supose I DO like rap kinda... Just not the "steriotype" rap or whatever I shoud call it. Not that "Bling-Bling" shit XD I hate that -.-'

Summer end.

Well, it's August so summer is over... Atleast I see August as a Fall month.  It's been cold latly, and raining. But I like it. when it's cold and raining at night I feel realy sleepy. And I usaly get a raly good night sleep.
Like today where I sleept to 2 PM....

Atleast I did somthing today XD I went to the city to buy letter paper and some gliter and sutch to put on the letters^^
And I brought a little present for Jenny. But I need to figure how to send it by mail though... Her birthday is in two days! D:
I can't whait till winter. Summer is fine but this year I have realy missed winter for some reason... I don't like it beeing to hott I supose. And it's to mutch light at summer up here in the North.
I have truble sleeping. The sun barly slipps down in the horison for 1-2 hurs then it comes up again. And far up in North Norway they have weeks whitout any night.
They have weeks whitout any light at winter, to though. :3

This year I want to see the Per Gynt play. I am realy intrested in onld "romantic" Tales. And when I say Romantic I don't mean romance, I mean old and good, not old like the orginal Star Wars movies but OLD as in hundreds of year old folk tales and sutch :D
I love how horrible the old stories can be. They woud never tell that kind of stories to children these days, but honastly I think that we a way to protective over hur children these days.
But I love the fact that they never cut out the fact that Askeladden (Ashladd as they call him in Englis-.-') made the troll cut a whole to his own stomac XD

Today's video:

To torment your minds! >:3

Tommorows to do list:

Shower

Write letter to Jenny

Finish my GinjouXIchigo drabbles chapter 1

Continue my orginal story.

I am pretty mellow actualy... Even if I don't seam like it over Intrenett. I don't like doing to mutch XD

New Blogg!!

Oki! New Blogg! :D

I was previusly using Livejornal, but blogger.com seam faster and more professional. Since I have been writing for a long while I figuerd I shoud start using this one.

I guess the real reason why I wanted to use this site instead is thatI love this sites Picture uploader XD It's fast and I can upload many many pictures. Witch I am pretty obsessed whit :3

Right now I am pretty happy, I just got a letter from my friend Jenny! We have decided to become letter friends :D Even though we live in the same city XD
Her letter where so amaxing Owo It lookes like a pice of Art! I was going to start on my letter to her afther I read it, but then I noticed that I don't have any letter paper!!! D:
Sorry Jenny! If you are reading this I will try to see if I can buy some tomorrow. And I need to find you a birthday present! >//U//<  I love giving presents :3

I'm a little down though.... I always post and post in the GinjouXIchigo  FC but it seam there are very few active members TT3TT And there are no Art of them latly.... SOMONE GIVE ME A DRAWING OF THEM!!! XD But hey.... hopefully if the Bleach chapters get's better maby more than me and one other will be active XD
Ok, so I do post there  a little TO mutch.... But I can't help it. I am obsessed whit them!

Last chapter was kinda.... dissapointing, even if Rukia is back.

Har hair cut looks just like Nozomi and Hanatarou's! >_< But.... She is a vice captain now! /// Ruuukiaaa-chaaann!!! <3


I need to start writing more on my book soon >_> I always hate myself for not doing it... I am almoast done whit the first chapter on my 100 GinjouXIchigo drabbles.
Meaning I have been writing 10 drabbles.... Pretty long drabbles... It was the only way for me to write Fan-Fiction, since I always get new ideas and get bored whit the old ones.

I'm kinda suprised... two Japanese GinjouXIchigo fan artist has begann watching me on Twitter... O3O Makes me happy though. I supose it was becouse I wrote in my Twitter introduction that I loved GinjouXIchigo ///
I love Japanese fan girls... The ones KuuIchi in BA seam to be hot for GinjouXTsukishima to.... (I don't like that pairing... TT3TT)  But the Japanese fans are all for GinjouXIchigo only >///< I do love how fathefull the Japanese are!

I write to mutch.... Sorry! /// Those who have read my Journals and my posts in the GinjouXIchigo FC probably allredy know XD
I can't help it, I love to ramble and rant^-^"

Anyway, maby I shoud talk a little abaut my Summer... I have been pretty bizy. First I was on a one week vacation whit my Mom, Grandmom and friend Alida, oh and Usagi was whit us, my bunny :3

But before that it was Desucon! Whitch was awesome, even if I had to leave early becouse I felt sick (I got seriusly ill afther that TT3TT)

There where so many by Outland whaiting to lave for Desucon together! I was so glad Roy was there when I came, or else I woud had to stand there all alone whitout knowing anyone D:

 

Me and some of my friends standing in line XD Yes I slashed their faces! Their Identety is top secret :3

This guys was creepy... and playing his part well XD Me en Roy where joking abaut him going to kill everyone XD ....... I never saw him again at the Con... O3o

Outside whit the Crazy Hetalia cosplayers! XD

I also went to Disneyland paris this summer, whit my Aun, Uncle and their two kids. I don't have any pictures from there though D:

I was at the Norwegian foke museum to, whit my mom. And took many inspiering pics for my book^^

Today's Video:

Raske Menn.... I love them! <3