Hi! I made the new blogg!
Please follow http://kiarasinblogg.blogspot.com/ ! :)
I won't be writing here anymore.
fredag 4. november 2011
torsdag 3. november 2011
New blogg comming up!
I did a huge mistake when making this blogg.... I used a diffrent E-mail loggin adress than my Youtube one... meaning that I can't be on youtube and bloggers at once -.-
And I am addicted to listen to music while I write.
So! I will make a new blogg, and I will post the link when I am done!
This blog will be better, I will probably post my photoraps on it to :) And write abaut more "normal" things XD
I just joined JapanCupid the dating site, I hope to get in touch whit some nice Japanese peapole^^
Allredy have somone intrested.
And I am addicted to listen to music while I write.
So! I will make a new blogg, and I will post the link when I am done!
This blog will be better, I will probably post my photoraps on it to :) And write abaut more "normal" things XD
I just joined JapanCupid the dating site, I hope to get in touch whit some nice Japanese peapole^^
Allredy have somone intrested.
mandag 31. oktober 2011
The moast beautifull thing in the world is the world itself...
I watched this video, and all my worries just sort of disapeared.
This explains the Big Bange theory to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9CkbbohKDoY
...............................
It sort of all came back to me.
:)
I now feel like it all makes sense... All those billion spheres are picked up by the galaxies.... then in the end, all the galaxies disolve and break apart. And this goes on for ever and ever...
So beautifull.
This explains the Big Bange theory to.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9CkbbohKDoY
...............................
It sort of all came back to me.
:)
I now feel like it all makes sense... All those billion spheres are picked up by the galaxies.... then in the end, all the galaxies disolve and break apart. And this goes on for ever and ever...
So beautifull.
søndag 23. oktober 2011
Tokki Tokki (Maby I shoud just go?)
Just before I start... I realy realy don't care at all anymore if peaole thing I am crazy XD
Everybody is crazy! :D
3 days ago I saw a purple light UFO... I did ask whit my higher self if they coud show themselvs, and they did! (Yup, this miht sounds like I am a loony)
It made a very weard shifting sound... it was unlike any sound I have ever heard before...
Today I feel realy fed up. The peaole around me trying to take control of me, I am realy tierd of it. I am tierd of myself letting peaole controll my life.
I keep doing things I don't want... And in my eyes that is whaisting your life.
I want to life so I can follow my exitement in this life.
I am to good hearted and bonded I supose. I know that if I just runn away I will make life hell for peaole around me.
but to be honast.... I am realy thinking abaut doing that now...
I seriusly need some change in my life, some BIG change! I have been living the same life for over 5 years now. I want to sart on a totaly new chapter.
Who knows.... pherhaps running away will help me... It's nearing winter in Norway now though, so the cold might be a problem. But I know I will survive... I can just sneak into a farm and sleep there at night.
And food... I'll manage to find somthing... I am not so hungry these days anyway. Mo body don't need so mutch food anymore.
And my clothes can be wahed in a river.
Realy... I know what to do.
Time is simply flying before my eyes, some things that happens year ago felt like they happend yeaturday and things that happend yesturday felt like they happand years ago.... Many peapole feel this now.
I mean... it's not like I actualy "have" a home anymore anyway, I have been moving so mutch around these last years and I just can't seam to stay in one place, or else I feel like I might go craazy...
So peaole around me... if I dissapear I have probably ran away... Or Acsended, or gone whit a UFO. Anything is possible.
Don't worry abaut death and sucide though, it's not my thing ^^
I enjoy life very mutch thanks!
October 28 is comming op... I realy hope somthing happens then, like peaole suspect.
Iee, I don't belive in doomsday, but I belive that there will be some great changes all over this planet.
We are redy for that now, we realy are... btw, you shoud realy listen to this guy. He has some brains:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCRnkamitVk&list=WL061AF4642BA983BA&index=58
And some guts!
I am not from the USA, but still...
My cuntry Norway is super ritch still... I have afeeling that we might be the last cuntry to fall, and when we do it's becouse no one can aford ony or our Oil anymore XD And then we'll have to go back to Fishing and Ski making again! XP
So this is basacly what's going on in my life latly....
It'a a very frustrating feeling to feel like you are beeing con trolled by the peaole you know... 21, that's how old I feel. I am 17, bujt I feel 21... I have felt 21 since I was a kid.
My own "Family" is not my Family, they are... Somboy I know. I never had a belongness feeling to any of them.
I am sorry ): I just can't. It's like trying to feel related to a Cow, when you are a Bird. (No ofense, I realy realy love Cows! X3)
Anyway, I will probably prepare a bagg whit all the necacerry thing I need if I suddanly finaly had enough, or just have to leave. I can't take this mutch longer.
I am never alone or abandoned, so that is no problem ether. We are NEVER alone.
Please live your lifes in Joy and Exitement! Follow these things and you will find Heavan on Earth!
(Blah, Blah, Blah, Rant rant rant XD) Wakatteru!
Everybody is crazy! :D
3 days ago I saw a purple light UFO... I did ask whit my higher self if they coud show themselvs, and they did! (Yup, this miht sounds like I am a loony)
It made a very weard shifting sound... it was unlike any sound I have ever heard before...
Today I feel realy fed up. The peaole around me trying to take control of me, I am realy tierd of it. I am tierd of myself letting peaole controll my life.
I keep doing things I don't want... And in my eyes that is whaisting your life.
I want to life so I can follow my exitement in this life.
I am to good hearted and bonded I supose. I know that if I just runn away I will make life hell for peaole around me.
but to be honast.... I am realy thinking abaut doing that now...
I seriusly need some change in my life, some BIG change! I have been living the same life for over 5 years now. I want to sart on a totaly new chapter.
Who knows.... pherhaps running away will help me... It's nearing winter in Norway now though, so the cold might be a problem. But I know I will survive... I can just sneak into a farm and sleep there at night.
And food... I'll manage to find somthing... I am not so hungry these days anyway. Mo body don't need so mutch food anymore.
And my clothes can be wahed in a river.
Realy... I know what to do.
Time is simply flying before my eyes, some things that happens year ago felt like they happend yeaturday and things that happend yesturday felt like they happand years ago.... Many peapole feel this now.
I mean... it's not like I actualy "have" a home anymore anyway, I have been moving so mutch around these last years and I just can't seam to stay in one place, or else I feel like I might go craazy...
So peaole around me... if I dissapear I have probably ran away... Or Acsended, or gone whit a UFO. Anything is possible.
Don't worry abaut death and sucide though, it's not my thing ^^
I enjoy life very mutch thanks!
October 28 is comming op... I realy hope somthing happens then, like peaole suspect.
Iee, I don't belive in doomsday, but I belive that there will be some great changes all over this planet.
We are redy for that now, we realy are... btw, you shoud realy listen to this guy. He has some brains:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cCRnkamitVk&list=WL061AF4642BA983BA&index=58
And some guts!
I am not from the USA, but still...
My cuntry Norway is super ritch still... I have afeeling that we might be the last cuntry to fall, and when we do it's becouse no one can aford ony or our Oil anymore XD And then we'll have to go back to Fishing and Ski making again! XP
So this is basacly what's going on in my life latly....
It'a a very frustrating feeling to feel like you are beeing con trolled by the peaole you know... 21, that's how old I feel. I am 17, bujt I feel 21... I have felt 21 since I was a kid.
My own "Family" is not my Family, they are... Somboy I know. I never had a belongness feeling to any of them.
I am sorry ): I just can't. It's like trying to feel related to a Cow, when you are a Bird. (No ofense, I realy realy love Cows! X3)
Anyway, I will probably prepare a bagg whit all the necacerry thing I need if I suddanly finaly had enough, or just have to leave. I can't take this mutch longer.
I am never alone or abandoned, so that is no problem ether. We are NEVER alone.
Please live your lifes in Joy and Exitement! Follow these things and you will find Heavan on Earth!
(Blah, Blah, Blah, Rant rant rant XD) Wakatteru!
onsdag 19. oktober 2011
Joy
Joy, hapiness.
Those are the feeling I want to embrace, and those are the feelings I "Am" embracing.
In the end only yourself can make you realy happy.
I where just listening to my favourite Soundtrack of ALL time. the "Leeloo" Soundtrack from one of my favourite Movies "The Fifht Element"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYKmY57G1nQ&feature=related
It's just so incredible beautifull, espechealy from 1:32 ~~
Many think thos movie is low budget and trashy... but I like it for what it is. It's cute, Funny, Creative, Sci-Fi, and Action.
And the music is realy good^^
Leeloo is one of the deepest insperations for my own stories, she is just so damn Awesome! <3
"Multi Pass!" X3
You know what, afther I have started to Awakend, suddanly EVERYTHING makes sense.... I woud encurage other to do the same... It's sutch a wonderfull feeling to be "Aware" of the dream that this 3D world is.
And why the changes in the world is appening.
You feel mutch more happy, and all those silly little things that used to botther you are just funny XD
Now, if I where able to go to Japan and find my love soon, I woud be so unbelivable happy.
I had a dream abaut Acsenchion one time, it was dark. "the end was near" I heard in that dream. The monsters where comming.
I ran, and I bumped into this Japanese guy, he where speaking English and asked if I was redy. He took my hand, thena a Spacehip lifted us up from the ground.
All dreams has meanings, our world n a sense is all going on Inside of ourselvs. Becouse we all see the world from whithin ourself.
There is so mutch that can happen to all of us durning acsencion. Some will go to higher dimensions of Earth, some will go to the 4th, the dream world.
Some will go to or stay in th 3d.
Some will go whit the sapce ship.
In my dream I was lifted into the space ship... I don't know where I am supose to go. Will I join the new world? I want to see the peaole of the Earth grow up to be brilliant. To see awesome new tecnology....
But my highest exitment is to Write my book and to have a happy faimly, a wonderfull husband and hildren. And I want the world around me to be more peacfull, more futuristic, more high tecnology.
As long as I end up there I want I will be happy. Living your dream is the purpose of life. Follow your dream.
I want to leav this planet in the future though. But my time is not yet. Who knows, may in the future I will live whit my own family in Japan, being a famus Author.
That's all I want.
And of course, I want "First Contact" to happen. That woud make me unbelivable happy. UFO sighting every day, they are whaiting for us to be redy.
I am redy.... and I feel that the rest of the world are soon to.
Pherhaps on 11.11.11............. We'll see. It wil happen some day.
I have seen them myself, thy where there for me during my operation.
Now my dream abaut the telling me that they woud always be there for me if I needed them, it finaly makes sense to me.
I saw 3 UFO's when I drove whit my uncle to the doctor. It's funny it woud happen that day, becouse I don't ualy see UFO's.
They where there whit me, all the time. Keeping me calm. I wished I coud remember talking to them, but som things are best forgotten. I know I woud want to go back so badly if I rememberd.
My time is not yet^^
You humans think the Universe is so bigg. But the universe you see is so small. It's so mutch bigger than moast of you can imagen in the 3d world.
We cannot exist whitout the Universe, and the Universe cannot exist whitout Uss.
(Might sound like a lot of bullshit for peaole reading this, but I respect beleaf. So please respect back. I think nothing of Christians, Muslims and Mothism, but I don't say anything against it)
Those are the feeling I want to embrace, and those are the feelings I "Am" embracing.
In the end only yourself can make you realy happy.
I where just listening to my favourite Soundtrack of ALL time. the "Leeloo" Soundtrack from one of my favourite Movies "The Fifht Element"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oYKmY57G1nQ&feature=related
It's just so incredible beautifull, espechealy from 1:32 ~~
Many think thos movie is low budget and trashy... but I like it for what it is. It's cute, Funny, Creative, Sci-Fi, and Action.
And the music is realy good^^
Leeloo is one of the deepest insperations for my own stories, she is just so damn Awesome! <3
"Multi Pass!" X3
You know what, afther I have started to Awakend, suddanly EVERYTHING makes sense.... I woud encurage other to do the same... It's sutch a wonderfull feeling to be "Aware" of the dream that this 3D world is.
And why the changes in the world is appening.
You feel mutch more happy, and all those silly little things that used to botther you are just funny XD
Now, if I where able to go to Japan and find my love soon, I woud be so unbelivable happy.
I had a dream abaut Acsenchion one time, it was dark. "the end was near" I heard in that dream. The monsters where comming.
I ran, and I bumped into this Japanese guy, he where speaking English and asked if I was redy. He took my hand, thena a Spacehip lifted us up from the ground.
All dreams has meanings, our world n a sense is all going on Inside of ourselvs. Becouse we all see the world from whithin ourself.
There is so mutch that can happen to all of us durning acsencion. Some will go to higher dimensions of Earth, some will go to the 4th, the dream world.
Some will go to or stay in th 3d.
Some will go whit the sapce ship.
In my dream I was lifted into the space ship... I don't know where I am supose to go. Will I join the new world? I want to see the peaole of the Earth grow up to be brilliant. To see awesome new tecnology....
But my highest exitment is to Write my book and to have a happy faimly, a wonderfull husband and hildren. And I want the world around me to be more peacfull, more futuristic, more high tecnology.
As long as I end up there I want I will be happy. Living your dream is the purpose of life. Follow your dream.
I want to leav this planet in the future though. But my time is not yet. Who knows, may in the future I will live whit my own family in Japan, being a famus Author.
That's all I want.
And of course, I want "First Contact" to happen. That woud make me unbelivable happy. UFO sighting every day, they are whaiting for us to be redy.
I am redy.... and I feel that the rest of the world are soon to.
Pherhaps on 11.11.11............. We'll see. It wil happen some day.
I have seen them myself, thy where there for me during my operation.
Now my dream abaut the telling me that they woud always be there for me if I needed them, it finaly makes sense to me.
I saw 3 UFO's when I drove whit my uncle to the doctor. It's funny it woud happen that day, becouse I don't ualy see UFO's.
They where there whit me, all the time. Keeping me calm. I wished I coud remember talking to them, but som things are best forgotten. I know I woud want to go back so badly if I rememberd.
My time is not yet^^
You humans think the Universe is so bigg. But the universe you see is so small. It's so mutch bigger than moast of you can imagen in the 3d world.
We cannot exist whitout the Universe, and the Universe cannot exist whitout Uss.
(Might sound like a lot of bullshit for peaole reading this, but I respect beleaf. So please respect back. I think nothing of Christians, Muslims and Mothism, but I don't say anything against it)
fredag 14. oktober 2011
Dreaming of Japan.
I might be a huge dreamer. Wanting to fly in space and all that, but I do have down to Earth dreams to!
But some says that they are kinda unrealistic to.
Hey, peapole have their diffrent vews of reality! I will if I want! I can do whatever I want if I want it enough! :)
One of these dreams is Japan, I realy, realy, realy wanna go there! And SOOOON!
I have this burning, like I have somthing to discover.
It's my highest exitement right now!
I love Japan very mutch, somthing abaut it is calling out to me!
In my future I want to be making Cute Bento boxes for my half Japanese children. I want to go the the Japanese conviniance storse and explore all the weard food, I want to marry a nice Japanese man.
I want to celebrate Japanese christmast, and put presents by my Children's beds. To bake cakes to my Japanese husband...
Just thinking abaut Japan makes me happy... I kinda get a longing for a strange home... or pherhaps a potensioaly "new" home.
The peaole there are what I am looking for. Kind and very polite.
I have been looking at all these awesome videoes today, and my entire beeing is screaming "I wanna go there NAOW!!"
I where likely to go to Japan whit my Japanese class in winter vacation in February.... but then my Japanese teacher said that it where mutch more likely to happen in winter vacation 2013.... YADAAAA!!! D:<
I want it to be THIS winter! I don't want to whait another Year!
I realy need it to be this year, my Aunt and Uncle say they will be paying for it! If it happens in 2013 I will have to pay everything myself... and I will have to whait, witch I don't want to! T3T
I realy realy want this......
I mean... Just look at this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atrUv7qb4P8
You know... when you realy FEEL somthing in your heart calling for you.... That's the thing I am getting. Like my SOUL is telling me I HAVE to go there!
I am on the edge of crying now.... I hope I will wake up and soon be able to go to Japan.... who knows, I might even find my love there. :)
But some says that they are kinda unrealistic to.
Hey, peapole have their diffrent vews of reality! I will if I want! I can do whatever I want if I want it enough! :)
One of these dreams is Japan, I realy, realy, realy wanna go there! And SOOOON!
I have this burning, like I have somthing to discover.
It's my highest exitement right now!
I love Japan very mutch, somthing abaut it is calling out to me!
In my future I want to be making Cute Bento boxes for my half Japanese children. I want to go the the Japanese conviniance storse and explore all the weard food, I want to marry a nice Japanese man.
I want to celebrate Japanese christmast, and put presents by my Children's beds. To bake cakes to my Japanese husband...
Just thinking abaut Japan makes me happy... I kinda get a longing for a strange home... or pherhaps a potensioaly "new" home.
The peaole there are what I am looking for. Kind and very polite.
I have been looking at all these awesome videoes today, and my entire beeing is screaming "I wanna go there NAOW!!"
I where likely to go to Japan whit my Japanese class in winter vacation in February.... but then my Japanese teacher said that it where mutch more likely to happen in winter vacation 2013.... YADAAAA!!! D:<
I want it to be THIS winter! I don't want to whait another Year!
I realy need it to be this year, my Aunt and Uncle say they will be paying for it! If it happens in 2013 I will have to pay everything myself... and I will have to whait, witch I don't want to! T3T
I realy realy want this......
I mean... Just look at this:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=atrUv7qb4P8
You know... when you realy FEEL somthing in your heart calling for you.... That's the thing I am getting. Like my SOUL is telling me I HAVE to go there!
I am on the edge of crying now.... I hope I will wake up and soon be able to go to Japan.... who knows, I might even find my love there. :)
mandag 10. oktober 2011
Konbanwa!
Umm... Hi :3
Been a long time since I wrote. I have been so laaaazy whit everything latly... ah well, not realy. Live's been busy.
My mom got sick, and I had to move to my aunt and uncle. It's lively here.
I have been pretty stressed latly, I keep forgetting everything and I ceep stalling thing.
But all in all I am pretty happy latly, I have manage to find some inner peace for a while.
So while I am living my life the world is chaging around me, the time is coming closer and closer. And I am happy lying in my bed, writing in my blog while my rabitt jumps around me^^
Usagi-chan is so adorable!
I had a very very very verfy very boring Atum vacation,... so it was nice today to finaly start school again. Japanese was fun as always... but it is getting very hard and I am totaly loosing my gripp! D:
But hey, I am space girl, where is the spacey stuff!? Right here:
I mist say, I can't stop watching this, very beautifull: "Is the Univere Infinite" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dG1JpC5jels
More Spiritual: "I Am" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5fkDz_sN4E In those times I have been feeling realy realy lost, depressed, I do this. Becouse you know, this is a thing every single human does every day. Even I, you forgett that you actualy exist, and how mutch you EXIST!!
Live long and Prosper~
Spo- ehhh Kiara~ <3
Been a long time since I wrote. I have been so laaaazy whit everything latly... ah well, not realy. Live's been busy.
My mom got sick, and I had to move to my aunt and uncle. It's lively here.
I have been pretty stressed latly, I keep forgetting everything and I ceep stalling thing.
But all in all I am pretty happy latly, I have manage to find some inner peace for a while.
So while I am living my life the world is chaging around me, the time is coming closer and closer. And I am happy lying in my bed, writing in my blog while my rabitt jumps around me^^
Usagi-chan is so adorable!
But hey, I am space girl, where is the spacey stuff!? Right here:
I mist say, I can't stop watching this, very beautifull: "Is the Univere Infinite" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dG1JpC5jels
More Spiritual: "I Am" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=T5fkDz_sN4E In those times I have been feeling realy realy lost, depressed, I do this. Becouse you know, this is a thing every single human does every day. Even I, you forgett that you actualy exist, and how mutch you EXIST!!
Live long and Prosper~
Spo- ehhh Kiara~ <3
mandag 26. september 2011
fredag 23. september 2011
There is somthing seriusly wrong whit the world "order"
Yeah... What on Earth happend!?
Why is money controlling the world, why can't we live "freely"? Why does the "socienty" basacly force uss to have a jobb so the world can go "around"
This is wrong... so wrong. And I am so glad the world banks are failing.
It's time we all make achange, and clean up all the mess, and start all over again!
And I want to help! I am not hsure "why" I am here, but I feel it's becouse of my imagination.To tell the world abaut a beautifull storie.
Remember that we all "Are" we all "Exist" becouse we have a soul.
Moast peapole on this Earth are "from" the Eath spirits, you are the children of Earth... so what are peaole doing to their mother? ):
Now let me tell this... I am not from Eath, my "Mother" are not Earth. (Yeah go ahead, call me crazy if you want to whaist your time whit that)
I can feel deep inside that I have been to so many places.... But none like this, this place is unlike any I have ever been to.
I mis the freedom, I miss to fly, I miss the tecnology.... I miss so mutch.
Yes, I am an so called "Alien".
This world is so full, haha! XD But seriusly everyone.... I know that everyone on this planet want, deep inside them, cange.
This place is so cruppted, so..... wrong. But everything can change, change is mutch more easy that peaole might think.
I woud recoment to watch this lill video, it's truly amazing.:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OibqdwHyZxk&list=WL061AF4642BA983BA&index=37
I guess.... It's to soon to tell more abaut me and the whole Alien thing... Let's just say that I am starting to remember thremendusly!
~Kiara
Why is money controlling the world, why can't we live "freely"? Why does the "socienty" basacly force uss to have a jobb so the world can go "around"
This is wrong... so wrong. And I am so glad the world banks are failing.
It's time we all make achange, and clean up all the mess, and start all over again!
And I want to help! I am not hsure "why" I am here, but I feel it's becouse of my imagination.To tell the world abaut a beautifull storie.
Remember that we all "Are" we all "Exist" becouse we have a soul.
Moast peapole on this Earth are "from" the Eath spirits, you are the children of Earth... so what are peaole doing to their mother? ):
Now let me tell this... I am not from Eath, my "Mother" are not Earth. (Yeah go ahead, call me crazy if you want to whaist your time whit that)
I can feel deep inside that I have been to so many places.... But none like this, this place is unlike any I have ever been to.
I mis the freedom, I miss to fly, I miss the tecnology.... I miss so mutch.
Yes, I am an so called "Alien".
This world is so full, haha! XD But seriusly everyone.... I know that everyone on this planet want, deep inside them, cange.
This place is so cruppted, so..... wrong. But everything can change, change is mutch more easy that peaole might think.
I woud recoment to watch this lill video, it's truly amazing.:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OibqdwHyZxk&list=WL061AF4642BA983BA&index=37
I guess.... It's to soon to tell more abaut me and the whole Alien thing... Let's just say that I am starting to remember thremendusly!
~Kiara
fredag 16. september 2011
I'm sorry ):
I'm sorry. I know I wrote that hatefull post abaut my mother some huors ago. I am realy sick of her illness having grown up whit it, it came at such a stupid time and I amrealy realy tierd...
When you are extreamly nagry and frustrated it's so easy to take it out on somone else...
I am better now, posting this on the Starseed Network was a very clever thing to do, peaole there are so nice and lovable, no other beings woud help me like that.
It was just what I needed.
Thank you my fellow Sarseeds! :)
This is what I posted there:
I am sorry this had to be my first real post on this wonderfull sire... But I realy need some suport right now.
I hpe this don't make me seam very slefish or somthing....
So..... -
My Mom has a phsycological depression illness. She get's it almoast every 3-4th year. So for me growing up she somthimes suddanly got sick and I coun't see her.
So I had to live whit my grandmom.
No she has got it again.
I never felt that it was realy my fault as a kid, but this time I realy do. I have serius problems whit school, amking everyone around me angry and frustarted over me.
And espechealy my mom. Although she get's moastly sad and upsett. I know she feels that everything is her fault, that she maby coud have done somthing abaut it the past.
I realy can't help it, I have Dyslexia, and I have never liked or enjoyed school, both sochialy and learning wise. It never gave me any meaning...
I now some other Strseeds also have felt this way in school probably. I have never got the point whit school the way it is, I have always had truble learning.
So in the last 5 years now, I have skipped school a lot. Becouse whenever I go to school I ualy feel horrible, bored, angry, frustarted, misunderstood etc.
But of course, in this society it is recuierd to go to school to get a "life". Atleast that is what eveybody says to me.
When I started on Junior Highs School my teachers contacted the Childrens Protection Cervice becouse of my school problems. Making my mom feel realy upset, of course, and at that point I know she must have feelt like a realy bad mother.
(She is a extreamly good mother!)
I felt helpless as well, becouse I know that I can never, and have never fit into School. No mattter how many thimes the Children Protection Cervice tryed to hlp me nothing got beter, it got worse.
I have no motivation for school at all, peapole tryed to help me whit that but it's no good.
So when I started on High School they (children pro cervice) decided that I shoud move to my Grandmom, since they felt that it was mom's fault that I was unable to go to school.
I have lived whit my Grandmom for over a year now, we don't get along and noting is better.
I realy don't know what to do anymore! TT_TT Last week the Cildren Protection cervce decided that maby it was best for me to live whit my mom afther all, and decided that I coud move home again afther Fall vacation.
But today my mom get Angst and Depressions becouse she is so afraid to have me home again, she can't take the presshure...
So.... My own mother can't have me living whit her anymore aparantly. And it is all my fault, becouse I can't handle School... I feel so lost!
I feel like nobody understands me, not my family, not the sochiety, nobody!
Some mental suport from anybody? Please!?
I realy need it...
I wished I had stranght enough to talk to my friends abaut this, but I have very few and I am to shy and I don't want to boter them whit my problems...
Sorry to bother you whit this! I just felt like posting it in thos forum, I did not know who else to tell D':
So Mutch Love ~ Kiara
Like said; I am feeling better now, I shoud focus on my path. A user on the site did a reading for me, and I was so shcoked becouse it was so incredible RIGHT!
:
So it seems to me like you are in the middle of a confrontation with someone. I think you should let go of that situation because you cannot win. I suggest moving on and letting go what has happened. thinking of revenge just means your still holding onto the situation. I see there is something that you love, you are really creative as a person and you should express this creativity in anyway you can. Im sensing another female figure that's close with you know that might share these same ideas. If that's the case then its time you get to work, start planning ahead for what you want to do and want to be in your life. Plan as far into the future as you can, talk about it with your friend, get excited about it and dont let ANYONE tell you what you can or cant do, that's only for you to decide.
The difficolt confrontation is moast likely my mom. And I also feel that there is not mutch I can do abaut it so I shoud just let go. And the same whit School.
And the thing I love is so obius! My books! My prechius William! I shoud start focusing on that becouse that is what I am burning for in life, Whenever I talk abaut my stories whit anyone I burn whit exitement! :D
And the Female is also pretty obius, It's my friend Jenny! It coud hardly be anyone else :P We have recently figuerd that we have a lot in commen, mutch more than what we previusly thought. I am writing letters to her and feel like I can tell her anything.
Thank you Jenny! :D <3
And yes, nobody can tell me what to do whot my own life! I have been thinking that for years! :3
When you are extreamly nagry and frustrated it's so easy to take it out on somone else...
I am better now, posting this on the Starseed Network was a very clever thing to do, peaole there are so nice and lovable, no other beings woud help me like that.
It was just what I needed.
Thank you my fellow Sarseeds! :)
This is what I posted there:
I am sorry this had to be my first real post on this wonderfull sire... But I realy need some suport right now.
I hpe this don't make me seam very slefish or somthing....
So..... -
My Mom has a phsycological depression illness. She get's it almoast every 3-4th year. So for me growing up she somthimes suddanly got sick and I coun't see her.
So I had to live whit my grandmom.
No she has got it again.
I never felt that it was realy my fault as a kid, but this time I realy do. I have serius problems whit school, amking everyone around me angry and frustarted over me.
And espechealy my mom. Although she get's moastly sad and upsett. I know she feels that everything is her fault, that she maby coud have done somthing abaut it the past.
I realy can't help it, I have Dyslexia, and I have never liked or enjoyed school, both sochialy and learning wise. It never gave me any meaning...
I now some other Strseeds also have felt this way in school probably. I have never got the point whit school the way it is, I have always had truble learning.
So in the last 5 years now, I have skipped school a lot. Becouse whenever I go to school I ualy feel horrible, bored, angry, frustarted, misunderstood etc.
But of course, in this society it is recuierd to go to school to get a "life". Atleast that is what eveybody says to me.
When I started on Junior Highs School my teachers contacted the Childrens Protection Cervice becouse of my school problems. Making my mom feel realy upset, of course, and at that point I know she must have feelt like a realy bad mother.
(She is a extreamly good mother!)
I felt helpless as well, becouse I know that I can never, and have never fit into School. No mattter how many thimes the Children Protection Cervice tryed to hlp me nothing got beter, it got worse.
I have no motivation for school at all, peapole tryed to help me whit that but it's no good.
So when I started on High School they (children pro cervice) decided that I shoud move to my Grandmom, since they felt that it was mom's fault that I was unable to go to school.
I have lived whit my Grandmom for over a year now, we don't get along and noting is better.
I realy don't know what to do anymore! TT_TT Last week the Cildren Protection cervce decided that maby it was best for me to live whit my mom afther all, and decided that I coud move home again afther Fall vacation.
But today my mom get Angst and Depressions becouse she is so afraid to have me home again, she can't take the presshure...
So.... My own mother can't have me living whit her anymore aparantly. And it is all my fault, becouse I can't handle School... I feel so lost!
I feel like nobody understands me, not my family, not the sochiety, nobody!
Some mental suport from anybody? Please!?
I realy need it...
I wished I had stranght enough to talk to my friends abaut this, but I have very few and I am to shy and I don't want to boter them whit my problems...
Sorry to bother you whit this! I just felt like posting it in thos forum, I did not know who else to tell D':
So Mutch Love ~ Kiara
Like said; I am feeling better now, I shoud focus on my path. A user on the site did a reading for me, and I was so shcoked becouse it was so incredible RIGHT!
:
So it seems to me like you are in the middle of a confrontation with someone. I think you should let go of that situation because you cannot win. I suggest moving on and letting go what has happened. thinking of revenge just means your still holding onto the situation. I see there is something that you love, you are really creative as a person and you should express this creativity in anyway you can. Im sensing another female figure that's close with you know that might share these same ideas. If that's the case then its time you get to work, start planning ahead for what you want to do and want to be in your life. Plan as far into the future as you can, talk about it with your friend, get excited about it and dont let ANYONE tell you what you can or cant do, that's only for you to decide.
The difficolt confrontation is moast likely my mom. And I also feel that there is not mutch I can do abaut it so I shoud just let go. And the same whit School.
And the thing I love is so obius! My books! My prechius William! I shoud start focusing on that becouse that is what I am burning for in life, Whenever I talk abaut my stories whit anyone I burn whit exitement! :D
And the Female is also pretty obius, It's my friend Jenny! It coud hardly be anyone else :P We have recently figuerd that we have a lot in commen, mutch more than what we previusly thought. I am writing letters to her and feel like I can tell her anything.
Thank you Jenny! :D <3
And yes, nobody can tell me what to do whot my own life! I have been thinking that for years! :3
STUPID STUPID STUPID WOMAN!!!!
I know I am going to sound extreamly heartless and like and ashole when I write this. But I am very FUCKING TIERD!!!
My Mom is stupid! She is a fucking selfish ashole!!!!! Yes! I think it's selish that she is making herself suffer becouse of MY problems!!
Yeah, I know that she is my mom and all, an that becouse that I havee problems she feels guylty and powerless... But com on! I am s stubborn peace of shit!
The reason I have been struggeling whit school was becouse of the fact that I have Dylexia, wich no one can help, I was born whit it! And SHE feels guylty becouse she coud not do anything abaut that!? THAT'S SOOOOOO STUUUUUUPIIIID!!!!!!
She feels guylty becouse I started skipping school, she feels that everything is HER fault! FUCK YOU!!!! Was it YOUR decision that I started skipping school becouse it was so challeging for me mental and school wise? NO!!! It was MINE!!!
I hink she is SELFISH and SELFHARMING!!! She is STUPID!!! I know she feels a responsibility, and all that. Becouse she is my mom. And she is a realy good mom for feeling that responsibility. But let me tell you this woman. There is NOTHING YOU CAN DO!!! There si NOTHING anybody else can do!!
Becouse this is all my descisions!!! This is all MY life! You can't controll me like a muppet, but if you coud it woud actualy be right to feel sutch a guylt and responsibility!
You know this goes all out on ME!? Yesturday I was so happy, so fulkommen as we say is Norwegian. And today you ruined EVERYTHINg for me Mom! YOU are now making ME suffer!
Just when I though things woud finaly be okay, just when I had peace in mind... Fucking Bitch!!!
I am not the one having real problems, it's you! And YOU are making ME suffer for YOUR problems!!!
And I know you feel the same way when I am skipping school and all... But I realy can't handel that OKAY!? I think you are childish and ignorant right now!
And thsi time I want'f Fucking cry for you, you are an asshole!! I won't stuport you in this! I don't want to see you til you are all better!
Becouse that is only gonna make me suffer, and I don't belive I deserve to suffer becouse you are an ignorant jerk!
And you BETTER be able to take care of Usagi! If you make an innocent little purehearted rabbit suffer becouse of you then I will never forgive you!!
I love you mom and I hope you will get better soon, but I don't want to see a depressed and sad fac on you! So I don't want to see you before you are all better! And right now be concern abaut yourself not other. What are you REALY afraid of anyway? You think I just are goiing to die becouse I can't hanle school or somthing?
Trust me I am going to be great! Becouse I want to.
Well... I think it's becouse of me you are like this... If not then I have toaly failed XD
Bashar - There is no real outer reality, the only thing that is actualy real is you'r experiance of things.
This tells me somthing extreamly important. We all see things in diffrent way, we all have "our" experiance of reality.
My Mom is stupid! She is a fucking selfish ashole!!!!! Yes! I think it's selish that she is making herself suffer becouse of MY problems!!
Yeah, I know that she is my mom and all, an that becouse that I havee problems she feels guylty and powerless... But com on! I am s stubborn peace of shit!
The reason I have been struggeling whit school was becouse of the fact that I have Dylexia, wich no one can help, I was born whit it! And SHE feels guylty becouse she coud not do anything abaut that!? THAT'S SOOOOOO STUUUUUUPIIIID!!!!!!
She feels guylty becouse I started skipping school, she feels that everything is HER fault! FUCK YOU!!!! Was it YOUR decision that I started skipping school becouse it was so challeging for me mental and school wise? NO!!! It was MINE!!!
I hink she is SELFISH and SELFHARMING!!! She is STUPID!!! I know she feels a responsibility, and all that. Becouse she is my mom. And she is a realy good mom for feeling that responsibility. But let me tell you this woman. There is NOTHING YOU CAN DO!!! There si NOTHING anybody else can do!!
Becouse this is all my descisions!!! This is all MY life! You can't controll me like a muppet, but if you coud it woud actualy be right to feel sutch a guylt and responsibility!
You know this goes all out on ME!? Yesturday I was so happy, so fulkommen as we say is Norwegian. And today you ruined EVERYTHINg for me Mom! YOU are now making ME suffer!
Just when I though things woud finaly be okay, just when I had peace in mind... Fucking Bitch!!!
I am not the one having real problems, it's you! And YOU are making ME suffer for YOUR problems!!!
And I know you feel the same way when I am skipping school and all... But I realy can't handel that OKAY!? I think you are childish and ignorant right now!
And thsi time I want'f Fucking cry for you, you are an asshole!! I won't stuport you in this! I don't want to see you til you are all better!
Becouse that is only gonna make me suffer, and I don't belive I deserve to suffer becouse you are an ignorant jerk!
And you BETTER be able to take care of Usagi! If you make an innocent little purehearted rabbit suffer becouse of you then I will never forgive you!!
I love you mom and I hope you will get better soon, but I don't want to see a depressed and sad fac on you! So I don't want to see you before you are all better! And right now be concern abaut yourself not other. What are you REALY afraid of anyway? You think I just are goiing to die becouse I can't hanle school or somthing?
Trust me I am going to be great! Becouse I want to.
Well... I think it's becouse of me you are like this... If not then I have toaly failed XD
Bashar - There is no real outer reality, the only thing that is actualy real is you'r experiance of things.
This tells me somthing extreamly important. We all see things in diffrent way, we all have "our" experiance of reality.
torsdag 15. september 2011
Humon's words of wisdom
I just had to copy Humon's Journal to my own, it is so true!
"I was at a party the other day where a guy slapped a girl's butt and she freaked out, yelled at him and pushed him hard into a wall. Afterwards the guy asked his friends, "What the hell? Why did she freak out like that? I didn't even hit her that hard. Girls are so uptight"
While she did overreact a bit (I could hear the slap from where I stood, so it properly hurt more than he thought), I've heard this kind of comment before. "Why are women so boring? Why do they freak out just because you touch their ass/breasts? If a woman grabbed my ass I wouldn't react like that"
I just want to give a quick explanation for those guys who has yet to figure it out. Men are stronger physically than woman, there's no way to get around it, and from the day we were born women are taught that men can't be trusted. Well, except for our dads, and possibly our brothers, but we shouldn't trust your creepy uncle too much.
"Don't talk to strangers" really means "Don't talk to strange men", and we tell women not to get raped but not men that they shouldn't rape. "I'm a man, I can't help myself" is often heard when his girlfriend complains about him getting a bit too close to other girls. "Men are animals that can't control themselves. They are all dangerous. Never let a man be alone with someone else's child, he will surely rape it, and the same goes for you, young woman. All men are sexual offenders just waiting to get a chance"
That is very harshly said of course, but that's the core of what women are told throughout their lives, even by their own fathers. And even though we don't run away in horror as soon as we see a guy, for a long time before we get to know him it's somewhere in the back of our heads that he's dangerous. Studies have shown that even most men's biggest fear is other men (Getting beat up).
So if you're a guy, imagine that a guy much bigger and stronger then you grabbed your ass and started flirting with you. That's why girls freak out over a slap on the butt."
She wrote it on DA: http://humon.deviantart.com/journal/44134053/
This is so true, I am terrefyed of men/guys flirting whit me, I am generaly afraid of men... And so many just think abaut looks, and so many are unfathefull.... I am discusted over how unserius guys can be.
What am I looking for in a man? : Kind, Sensetive, Positive, Funny, Caring, Helpfull... Yes, I want a Prince chraming :P
"I was at a party the other day where a guy slapped a girl's butt and she freaked out, yelled at him and pushed him hard into a wall. Afterwards the guy asked his friends, "What the hell? Why did she freak out like that? I didn't even hit her that hard. Girls are so uptight"
While she did overreact a bit (I could hear the slap from where I stood, so it properly hurt more than he thought), I've heard this kind of comment before. "Why are women so boring? Why do they freak out just because you touch their ass/breasts? If a woman grabbed my ass I wouldn't react like that"
I just want to give a quick explanation for those guys who has yet to figure it out. Men are stronger physically than woman, there's no way to get around it, and from the day we were born women are taught that men can't be trusted. Well, except for our dads, and possibly our brothers, but we shouldn't trust your creepy uncle too much.
"Don't talk to strangers" really means "Don't talk to strange men", and we tell women not to get raped but not men that they shouldn't rape. "I'm a man, I can't help myself" is often heard when his girlfriend complains about him getting a bit too close to other girls. "Men are animals that can't control themselves. They are all dangerous. Never let a man be alone with someone else's child, he will surely rape it, and the same goes for you, young woman. All men are sexual offenders just waiting to get a chance"
That is very harshly said of course, but that's the core of what women are told throughout their lives, even by their own fathers. And even though we don't run away in horror as soon as we see a guy, for a long time before we get to know him it's somewhere in the back of our heads that he's dangerous. Studies have shown that even most men's biggest fear is other men (Getting beat up).
So if you're a guy, imagine that a guy much bigger and stronger then you grabbed your ass and started flirting with you. That's why girls freak out over a slap on the butt."
She wrote it on DA: http://humon.deviantart.com/journal/44134053/
This is so true, I am terrefyed of men/guys flirting whit me, I am generaly afraid of men... And so many just think abaut looks, and so many are unfathefull.... I am discusted over how unserius guys can be.
What am I looking for in a man? : Kind, Sensetive, Positive, Funny, Caring, Helpfull... Yes, I want a Prince chraming :P
mandag 12. september 2011
Part 1 Awakening - I am so tierd
I am so tierd: written while crying my eyes out.
I woke up to day, just wanting to cry my eyes out. I am so very tierd, I have lived on this planet in only 17 years, but allredy I am tierd of it.
School: Why? What's the point of it? So I can get a jobb and an education? Why? Will earning money to "survive" realy make me happy, is it what I am realy looking for? NO!
I am sick and tierd in the rules that have been created in this society. You have to get and jobb, earn money for food, live a long life that has just been whaisted in achiving nothing moast in moast of the chases.
If I am going to stay in this place I need a purpose, a REAL purpose. Not just doing what eveyone else does.
Can't othe peaole feel the wrongness in this society? In this entire worlds sociery? What's the point of living if you can't have freedom?
I want to do somthing!! But I am 17, I can't get a jobb yet, everyone aaround me is focing me to go to school witch I have always found conpleatly meaningless!
I want to go home! Oh, I just want to go home! Get me home.
Why does it all have to be so hard for me!? Becouse I MAKE it hard to myself... I am not, I am trying to make it simple. But no one understands.
This world is a Prison for me. The money system is prison. You can't go anywhere whitout money, you can't by anything whitout money.
You need a jobb to get money.
We are so cought up in out own businiss that we have forgott how to actualy live.
I am so sick of it, I am so sick of everyone around me. If I can't go home atleast give me somone from home, becouse I speak a diffrent language than everyone I have met.
I am so alone, I just want some company whit somone that understands!
I had always had so mutch difficulity sochiolicing whit peapole, I am always alone. i am missing a conpany I have never had before, I want to feel that feeling when talking to somone. Like we don't even need to talk becouse we allredy know what the other are feeling.
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Written a little afther:
I coud realy use some real conpany other than myself...
This is how I feel, and this is how I have felt all life, 17 years.
Still.... I know I can do it... But it woud be nice to have some peace once in a while. To see my kind...
I know I am all powerfull, like every beeing in this universe. Everyone can be all powefull if they want. But lonelyness... What am I gonna do abaut that?
I think that's one of those things I just can't do anything abaut. Peapole around me can't fill that lonely gap.
I think I shoud try and find amedetation class on how to contact your guieds and inner self... That I shoud need.
Other news I just listen to on of the Bashar channelings:
http://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/video/bashar-i-am-meditation-you-are-special
This realy helped me calm down! Thank you~
I woke up to day, just wanting to cry my eyes out. I am so very tierd, I have lived on this planet in only 17 years, but allredy I am tierd of it.
School: Why? What's the point of it? So I can get a jobb and an education? Why? Will earning money to "survive" realy make me happy, is it what I am realy looking for? NO!
I am sick and tierd in the rules that have been created in this society. You have to get and jobb, earn money for food, live a long life that has just been whaisted in achiving nothing moast in moast of the chases.
If I am going to stay in this place I need a purpose, a REAL purpose. Not just doing what eveyone else does.
Can't othe peaole feel the wrongness in this society? In this entire worlds sociery? What's the point of living if you can't have freedom?
I want to do somthing!! But I am 17, I can't get a jobb yet, everyone aaround me is focing me to go to school witch I have always found conpleatly meaningless!
I want to go home! Oh, I just want to go home! Get me home.
Why does it all have to be so hard for me!? Becouse I MAKE it hard to myself... I am not, I am trying to make it simple. But no one understands.
This world is a Prison for me. The money system is prison. You can't go anywhere whitout money, you can't by anything whitout money.
You need a jobb to get money.
We are so cought up in out own businiss that we have forgott how to actualy live.
I am so sick of it, I am so sick of everyone around me. If I can't go home atleast give me somone from home, becouse I speak a diffrent language than everyone I have met.
I am so alone, I just want some company whit somone that understands!
I had always had so mutch difficulity sochiolicing whit peapole, I am always alone. i am missing a conpany I have never had before, I want to feel that feeling when talking to somone. Like we don't even need to talk becouse we allredy know what the other are feeling.
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Written a little afther:
I coud realy use some real conpany other than myself...
This is how I feel, and this is how I have felt all life, 17 years.
Still.... I know I can do it... But it woud be nice to have some peace once in a while. To see my kind...
I know I am all powerfull, like every beeing in this universe. Everyone can be all powefull if they want. But lonelyness... What am I gonna do abaut that?
I think that's one of those things I just can't do anything abaut. Peapole around me can't fill that lonely gap.
I think I shoud try and find amedetation class on how to contact your guieds and inner self... That I shoud need.
Other news I just listen to on of the Bashar channelings:
http://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/video/bashar-i-am-meditation-you-are-special
This realy helped me calm down! Thank you~
lørdag 3. september 2011
I have been playing Star Ochean for 6 huors again today, I decided to re-play the whole game! And I am realy beter than the last time!!
I just love that game! Even if I want it to have many more planets... XD
I am so having a crush on Edge, he is so adorable! /// Ichigo like figure, around 16-17, blond spiky hair and green eyes~ <3 So cuute! ///
The game's music have VERY diffrent soundtracks, somthimes it sound like a Nintendo fighting games, and somthimes it's epic Orchestera music. I prefer the classic Orcester music... Like this soundtrack:
Lastly a message to myself: I realy need to stopp worrying so mutch, I need to sit down, relax and enjoy~
I just love that game! Even if I want it to have many more planets... XD
I am so having a crush on Edge, he is so adorable! /// Ichigo like figure, around 16-17, blond spiky hair and green eyes~ <3 So cuute! ///
The game's music have VERY diffrent soundtracks, somthimes it sound like a Nintendo fighting games, and somthimes it's epic Orchestera music. I prefer the classic Orcester music... Like this soundtrack:
I realy want the old Star Ocean games... It's kinda loser-ish to only play the latest one on PS3...
Is it realy wrong to want Yaoi between the Kind of Tropp (I think that was the anme XD) from planet Roax and Edge....!? O3o
I know Edge X Faize is the popular pairing but uh... Edge is just like how I see Ichigo, meaning he is UKE! X3
Some weeks ago I bought Doctor Who sesong 5 on DVD. I like the new Doctor, even though I think moast loved the 10th Doctor the moast (I did) I do love the 11th to. He seam more.... Human to me. :3
He's cuter and I love his hair.
I think sesong 6 is currantly airing, just like Torchwood Miracle day (Ianto come baaaack!!!) and I will proabably end up downloading it instead of whaiting over a year for the DVD box to come out... -.-
I'm kinda dissapointed in the Japanese Uke-Ichigo fangirls and the rest of them actualy, they usaly explode when sutch a pairing like Ginjou and Ichigo shows up, becouse it has so many hints and moment. But aparntly not to Ginjou X Ichigo... -.-
Ginjou are not popular whit the Girls... it seam. And KuuTsuki is realy popular even if it has realy little moments. It's kinda backwards... Oh well. I am still trying my best in the fandom to spread the GinjouXIchigo popularity :P
Can't whait to get my Fan Art from Jenny-chan! I felt kinda bad for making her draw since she had so mutch else to do... D: But atleast I am paying her^^
I like drawings more than money! :D
Lol, at a iscussion on the Bleach Asulym forum I just got reminded of how little I belive in "evil" I only belive in "bad" and "good" choices. Meaning choisies that realy hurt other and yourself and choises ment to help everyone, whitout intentionaly hurting anyone or anything^^
Ahhh~ Another beautifull song from Star Ocean ^.^
Lastly a message to myself: I realy need to stopp worrying so mutch, I need to sit down, relax and enjoy~
torsdag 1. september 2011
Life and Unshureness
Dirrea is so fun~ Damn my stomac! -.-" Earth! You food suck! XD Ms-Space Princess's can't tak it! TT3TT
Tell you somthing funny...Yesturday when I went home for Japanese class the weather was pretty clear, I took the underground and when I got out it was raining like the sky was falling down! DX And I did not bring my umbrella whit me XD I'm so clumsy...
Todays talk:
There is so much tension around me latly, abaut the world. I am reading in so many Alternative forums abaut the same thing but diffrent stories.
I belive the 2012 theories to be true, but not the end of the world like...
And the "comet" Elenin and all that, it's realy confusing. And the Acsention.... I want to go home! My fear is that I will be left here on Earth becouse I have done somthing wrong or was unable to do what I was supose to!
I want to see my family again! T3T (What i they have forgotten me!? D:)
But I have figuerd to just take it as it come, it will happen what it happens... whatever happen. I need to stop reading all those difrent stories and rather focus on myself XD
(Yes i like to write mutch, I am a rather shy and quiet girl of many words)
I just found out that my friend Jenny is intrested in Alternative things just like me! :D It's rare to be out age and belive in stuff... I belive i am the youngest at the Asthar command forum XD
Sooooooooooooooooo........... Normal stuff. I'm so glad to have Japanese again, I missed my frinds so! They are the only peapole that can make me laugh.
I am always sad though, whenever I see pictures of them latly I wished I coud still be at the same school and class as them.
It's sad when you for the first time in your life you find somone you are comftable whit, and only afther ahalf a year you slipp away.... If only I had been better at school...
Makes me cry... (Yeah I'm a wimp -.-')
Im's so sleepy these days.... All I want to do is lie in my bed and dream sweet dreams! D: Sleeping is nice~ I love to sleep~...
So, I did not have time to watch the Bleach Hell Movie or make that Bleach list to Jenny, or write more on my book today.... School life shure takes moast of your time.
Now I wan to go to sleep even if the time in Norway Oslo is only 20:58 right now... XD Nighty night~
Tell you somthing funny...Yesturday when I went home for Japanese class the weather was pretty clear, I took the underground and when I got out it was raining like the sky was falling down! DX And I did not bring my umbrella whit me XD I'm so clumsy...
Todays talk:
There is so much tension around me latly, abaut the world. I am reading in so many Alternative forums abaut the same thing but diffrent stories.
I belive the 2012 theories to be true, but not the end of the world like...
And the "comet" Elenin and all that, it's realy confusing. And the Acsention.... I want to go home! My fear is that I will be left here on Earth becouse I have done somthing wrong or was unable to do what I was supose to!
I want to see my family again! T3T (What i they have forgotten me!? D:)
But I have figuerd to just take it as it come, it will happen what it happens... whatever happen. I need to stop reading all those difrent stories and rather focus on myself XD
(Yes i like to write mutch, I am a rather shy and quiet girl of many words)
I just found out that my friend Jenny is intrested in Alternative things just like me! :D It's rare to be out age and belive in stuff... I belive i am the youngest at the Asthar command forum XD
Sooooooooooooooooo........... Normal stuff. I'm so glad to have Japanese again, I missed my frinds so! They are the only peapole that can make me laugh.
I am always sad though, whenever I see pictures of them latly I wished I coud still be at the same school and class as them.
It's sad when you for the first time in your life you find somone you are comftable whit, and only afther ahalf a year you slipp away.... If only I had been better at school...
Makes me cry... (Yeah I'm a wimp -.-')
Im's so sleepy these days.... All I want to do is lie in my bed and dream sweet dreams! D: Sleeping is nice~ I love to sleep~...
So, I did not have time to watch the Bleach Hell Movie or make that Bleach list to Jenny, or write more on my book today.... School life shure takes moast of your time.
Now I wan to go to sleep even if the time in Norway Oslo is only 20:58 right now... XD Nighty night~
mandag 29. august 2011
Just me^^
(Orginal written yesturday)
I am taking a break on the spiritual stuff I am ranting abaut, peapole I know will realy think I am nust.... XD
So...I have made a realy annoying mistake... On this site you need a damn google pasword to log in, and I created a new e-mail that is only for private stuff.
But on youtube I have my old google adress, so.... I can't be on the two sites at once! D:
I need music when I write!
Damn! XD
You know what I want? All the Snoopy movies and episodes on DVD, and the Norwegian dub to, it's pretty good and since I gre up whit it, I prefere that^^
I am in love whit this song:
And I do belive that everyone has a lttle (or bigg) Charlie Brown in them :3
(Finaly reunited whit my friends! I'll write abaut it somthiem soon)
I am taking a break on the spiritual stuff I am ranting abaut, peapole I know will realy think I am nust.... XD
So...I have made a realy annoying mistake... On this site you need a damn google pasword to log in, and I created a new e-mail that is only for private stuff.
But on youtube I have my old google adress, so.... I can't be on the two sites at once! D:
I need music when I write!
Damn! XD
You know what I want? All the Snoopy movies and episodes on DVD, and the Norwegian dub to, it's pretty good and since I gre up whit it, I prefere that^^
I am in love whit this song:
To bad this type of music has died out D: It's beautifull, and I prefere it over mutch else!
On my way home today I saw a cloud shaped just like my dead rabbit... It was realy beautifull, I realy miss her. *Real tears in my eyes*
Somhow I realy feel like Charlie somthimes XD
And I do belive that everyone has a lttle (or bigg) Charlie Brown in them :3
(Finaly reunited whit my friends! I'll write abaut it somthiem soon)
lørdag 27. august 2011
Weard dreams
I had two dreams last night, two kinda weard dreams.
The first one was so real, yet dreamy. I woke up, I looked up at the night sky and there where hundreds of space ships. However, I just remember one of them. The bigest one, it was a cloud ship.
(A space ship diskyesed as a cloud. It looked somthing like this...)
I think I told my mom in my dream. I was little scared abaut all the space ships, it was kinda unbelivable seeing all these space ships in the sky.
There where more cloudships there, and more "normal" ships. But this was the only one I coud proparly remember... The others I just remember as blinking objects.
This one spoke to me, I can remember quite what it was, but somthing like "We will always be here if you need us" Or somthing...
I don't remember mutch.... But I felt a sort of connection whit this ship.. It was the biggest up there...
The other dream was just me going out, I fell an notice that there was Snow everywhere! In AUGUST!!! I started taking pictures of some threes, who turned out to be Trolls... So I had to get away ... XD
The first one was so real, yet dreamy. I woke up, I looked up at the night sky and there where hundreds of space ships. However, I just remember one of them. The bigest one, it was a cloud ship.
(A space ship diskyesed as a cloud. It looked somthing like this...)
There where more cloudships there, and more "normal" ships. But this was the only one I coud proparly remember... The others I just remember as blinking objects.
This one spoke to me, I can remember quite what it was, but somthing like "We will always be here if you need us" Or somthing...
I don't remember mutch.... But I felt a sort of connection whit this ship.. It was the biggest up there...
The other dream was just me going out, I fell an notice that there was Snow everywhere! In AUGUST!!! I started taking pictures of some threes, who turned out to be Trolls... So I had to get away ... XD
torsdag 25. august 2011
What you realy want...
Latly I have been thinking... What do I REALY want...
I want peace. I don't realy need what I have, I don't want to live the way I do now. But I can't change it right now ether.
Well...I CAN but I woud have to run away from my city and society...
What I want is and adventurus life. To live in the cuntry. Growing up in the ciry I have never liked it, I have always longed for the free life on the cuntry.
And trust me, the Norwegian cuntry side is Beautifull. I can imagen, taking huors long walks in the woods, seeing nature and animals.
Exploring places I have never seen before.
Of course, I do love tecnology, and it has given me mutch in life. Insperation, Music and all that... But it's not somthing I need.
I do love watching Bleach an all that. But there is so mutch more to life out there. I want to live. Becouse living a city life is not what I call 'living'
It's like..... I dunno... It's now how you shoud live. You grow up in school, raised like everyone else, whit hundreds of other children. As you get older you must choose a "jobb" like everyone else in the society.
Then you get your jobb, you work and get payed. You buy a apartement, pherhaps find a partner and get some kids.
You raise your kid, you watch them grow, then you get old. Then when you are old enough you die.... For me... That's not the way to live my life.
I am one of those few that feels kinda traped by today's society.
Latly I have been reading a lot of what I belive in, at the Ashtar command site, abaut the awkaning and all that... I am not realy "Afraid"... more unshure and nervus. Becouse I am not confident what it means to be "Awakend" I don't know if I am awaken, half awakend or not awakend at all.
But I think I am mentaly prepared of the changes that might happens. I feel alone, shure I do, but I also feel a happiensees whithin me.
I have felt so mutch love latly, for everything. Everything in existance. Does that mean I am redy, I realy don't know.
I know things will change very soon, I think we all can feel it.
But I am not afraid. Just anxcius.
I am young, I don't have mutch to lose, there fore I don't have mutch to fear... But the thing I have is my mom, rabbit and my friends.
Of course I will be worried abaut them. I don't have a child or lover.
I am kinda worried that I will somhow "fail" this thing... I hope I have streangt enought to help myself trugh this. It woud be nice to have somone by my side, but somethings you must do all by yourself. One must be able to help onself.
An advice is always Medatating... But I have a problem whit medetating... It's not realy my thing. I like to fantasize to music and daydream... I have serius problems "Emthying" my head. It's always full of thoughts!
But not everyday thought. I wonder abaut the world, I go to my fantasy univers and my characters that I love so mutch...
Meditation is not my thing... Is that bad?.. I am young... am I TO young for this? .... When I took Aura photos I remember the guy looking into my eyes and said "Here whe have an old soul yes, a very old soul" .... I don't think I am very "young" in that sense.
But in this life, my body and mind is human... My needs are human... etc.
Lol, again peapole around me will think i am ether very weard or have mental isshues... Anyway XD
I hope everything will be okay. There is nothing I want more than be happy, and bring other joy, explore the world have fun, help others and all that^^
I have my sins, like watching redicolusly bloody Anime, and things like that. But honastly, I care and concerne very little abaut that since I have so mutch love and there is so mutch "light" stuff I like. If I where to listen to only drak music and where intrested in demons and wore only black clothes and brought other peapole misury..... Then it woud probably be a bigg deal XD
I belive that blody Anime represent the past cruelty of the human race... But latly I have seen that change. And that make me so happy.
It's funny how somthing cruel these times are met whit so mutch love. Times has changed, that woud rarly happen before.
I am thinking abaut Norway now. I have seen change in my peapole, my cuntry. Peapole have become more kind, more compassionate, more open.
I remember telling my mom when I where mutch younger "I think if somone hate you, want to beat you up etc, that if you just love them, and smile to them and always act kind to them they will just give up aventualy"
...... It will happen when it happens, I can't stop it and I don't want to stop it. Change is needed, change is balance and it will always and are always happening!
*Looong sigh*
I realy needed to get that out I supose....
Peace be whit you all~ Kiara.
I want peace. I don't realy need what I have, I don't want to live the way I do now. But I can't change it right now ether.
Well...I CAN but I woud have to run away from my city and society...
What I want is and adventurus life. To live in the cuntry. Growing up in the ciry I have never liked it, I have always longed for the free life on the cuntry.
And trust me, the Norwegian cuntry side is Beautifull. I can imagen, taking huors long walks in the woods, seeing nature and animals.
Exploring places I have never seen before.
Of course, I do love tecnology, and it has given me mutch in life. Insperation, Music and all that... But it's not somthing I need.
I do love watching Bleach an all that. But there is so mutch more to life out there. I want to live. Becouse living a city life is not what I call 'living'
It's like..... I dunno... It's now how you shoud live. You grow up in school, raised like everyone else, whit hundreds of other children. As you get older you must choose a "jobb" like everyone else in the society.
Then you get your jobb, you work and get payed. You buy a apartement, pherhaps find a partner and get some kids.
You raise your kid, you watch them grow, then you get old. Then when you are old enough you die.... For me... That's not the way to live my life.
I am one of those few that feels kinda traped by today's society.
Latly I have been reading a lot of what I belive in, at the Ashtar command site, abaut the awkaning and all that... I am not realy "Afraid"... more unshure and nervus. Becouse I am not confident what it means to be "Awakend" I don't know if I am awaken, half awakend or not awakend at all.
But I think I am mentaly prepared of the changes that might happens. I feel alone, shure I do, but I also feel a happiensees whithin me.
I have felt so mutch love latly, for everything. Everything in existance. Does that mean I am redy, I realy don't know.
I know things will change very soon, I think we all can feel it.
But I am not afraid. Just anxcius.
I am young, I don't have mutch to lose, there fore I don't have mutch to fear... But the thing I have is my mom, rabbit and my friends.
Of course I will be worried abaut them. I don't have a child or lover.
I am kinda worried that I will somhow "fail" this thing... I hope I have streangt enought to help myself trugh this. It woud be nice to have somone by my side, but somethings you must do all by yourself. One must be able to help onself.
An advice is always Medatating... But I have a problem whit medetating... It's not realy my thing. I like to fantasize to music and daydream... I have serius problems "Emthying" my head. It's always full of thoughts!
But not everyday thought. I wonder abaut the world, I go to my fantasy univers and my characters that I love so mutch...
Meditation is not my thing... Is that bad?.. I am young... am I TO young for this? .... When I took Aura photos I remember the guy looking into my eyes and said "Here whe have an old soul yes, a very old soul" .... I don't think I am very "young" in that sense.
But in this life, my body and mind is human... My needs are human... etc.
Lol, again peapole around me will think i am ether very weard or have mental isshues... Anyway XD
I hope everything will be okay. There is nothing I want more than be happy, and bring other joy, explore the world have fun, help others and all that^^
I have my sins, like watching redicolusly bloody Anime, and things like that. But honastly, I care and concerne very little abaut that since I have so mutch love and there is so mutch "light" stuff I like. If I where to listen to only drak music and where intrested in demons and wore only black clothes and brought other peapole misury..... Then it woud probably be a bigg deal XD
I belive that blody Anime represent the past cruelty of the human race... But latly I have seen that change. And that make me so happy.
It's funny how somthing cruel these times are met whit so mutch love. Times has changed, that woud rarly happen before.
I am thinking abaut Norway now. I have seen change in my peapole, my cuntry. Peapole have become more kind, more compassionate, more open.
I remember telling my mom when I where mutch younger "I think if somone hate you, want to beat you up etc, that if you just love them, and smile to them and always act kind to them they will just give up aventualy"
...... It will happen when it happens, I can't stop it and I don't want to stop it. Change is needed, change is balance and it will always and are always happening!
*Looong sigh*
I realy needed to get that out I supose....
Peace be whit you all~ Kiara.
New banner.
cheshire_me from BA made this wonderfull KuuIchi banner! X3
Uploading it here so I can us it at BA!
mandag 22. august 2011
Helping myself
It's not easy beeing a teenager.
Everyone around you can be so immature and all that, some don't know how to take care of themselvs. I have always feelt kinda outside the normal teenage life.
I am more of a loner, and I never fit quite inn.
The whole party, and lovers, and all that stuff never was me. I am more happy thinking abaut life, listening to music all by myself.
But ofcourse that can get depressing when I am all by myself. Peapole tell me I shoud live life when I can. I will not be a teenager again.
But I say "I don' want to be a teenager, I want to grow up and be a responsibel adult"
No one takes a teenager wanting to be an adult seriusly XD
I do have so many peapole around me trying to help me beeing more..."Normal" and I am realy thankfull, the thing is... I don't realy want to be normal.
I want to be me.
I have been having a rough time latly, all these teenage emotions and mood svings, depression. It's normall for teenagers. But honastly, it's my fault.
I am realy having a hard time beeing happy, and then I end up conplaining and writing emo stuff here in my blogg.
Even if I don't realy WANT to do that. I just want to be happy and energic. So............ Let's try again once more shall we?
I will be happy and optemisic!
You know, every since I was little I always liked beeing whit adult rather than playing whit kids. I think pherhaps I need some adult friends^^ Ofcourse I shoud have soome teenage friends to, but I reealy want some "Alternatve" adult friends.
I realy dubht any of my teenage friends will want to talk abaut me and all my Spiritual and Alien stuff.
I joined the Asthar command crew blogg, pherhaps I can find some good frinds there? I realy hope so, and I realy want to avoid any uncomftable dicussuins!
Love and Space, Kiara-chan!
Everyone around you can be so immature and all that, some don't know how to take care of themselvs. I have always feelt kinda outside the normal teenage life.
I am more of a loner, and I never fit quite inn.
The whole party, and lovers, and all that stuff never was me. I am more happy thinking abaut life, listening to music all by myself.
But ofcourse that can get depressing when I am all by myself. Peapole tell me I shoud live life when I can. I will not be a teenager again.
But I say "I don' want to be a teenager, I want to grow up and be a responsibel adult"
No one takes a teenager wanting to be an adult seriusly XD
I do have so many peapole around me trying to help me beeing more..."Normal" and I am realy thankfull, the thing is... I don't realy want to be normal.
I want to be me.
I have been having a rough time latly, all these teenage emotions and mood svings, depression. It's normall for teenagers. But honastly, it's my fault.
I am realy having a hard time beeing happy, and then I end up conplaining and writing emo stuff here in my blogg.
Even if I don't realy WANT to do that. I just want to be happy and energic. So............ Let's try again once more shall we?
I will be happy and optemisic!
You know, every since I was little I always liked beeing whit adult rather than playing whit kids. I think pherhaps I need some adult friends^^ Ofcourse I shoud have soome teenage friends to, but I reealy want some "Alternatve" adult friends.
I realy dubht any of my teenage friends will want to talk abaut me and all my Spiritual and Alien stuff.
I joined the Asthar command crew blogg, pherhaps I can find some good frinds there? I realy hope so, and I realy want to avoid any uncomftable dicussuins!
Love and Space, Kiara-chan!
søndag 21. august 2011
NOW I'm starting to get nervus.
I have this thing latly, that I am not nervus abaut anything before the day before or when it happeens -.-
I am not in school yet and I allredy wanna go home! And I AM home! D:
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I am so stressed now, I need to wrte somthing but I don't know what to write!!!
Soon I will probably start to bleed like a pigg! TT3TT
Need laugther! Need laughter!!!
................... I'll wrtie more. I must and I want to!
Is it possible to have a sort of crush on your own character?
I am kinda a loner so maby I am just crazy...... But it's not reealy like beeing in love. Mor like feeling the kind of love my two character have for echother...
I love my William so mutch! <3
And my Kiara (the orginal one, not me)
And my Sigmund!
And my Venus!
I sort of live for my own fantasie and characters, somethimes I feel like thats what reealy is keeping me going, always...
Kiara you are so weard -.-
lørdag 20. august 2011
I'm home...
It's probably becouse I am realy tierd and am abaut to have my period... beouse I feel realy depressed right now...
School starts the day afther tomorrow... I am not nervus, I supose I won't be before the day. I am not happy abaut it, I have to sswitch school again. Becouse I am a looser, simple as that.
I always lose.
And I am a redicalucly nervus wreck. I probably won't get any new friends.
And becouse I am feeling like shit right now, and becouse I am a a teenagers (Yuk) I feel like saying this:
No one likes me. There is just somthing abaut me that make peapole stay away. I am trying to be friendly and all that but.....
Maby I amb to chatty, to open but nervus... I have so few reel friend, and I barly see them. No-one ever friend me online. etc.
No one admiers me, and I am pretty shure that no body have ever had a crush on me when I was growing up...
But still, someow I manage to stay happy moast of the time. I always manage to entertain myself. I do supose I am sort of a loner. I do know how to entertain myself...
But I do LOVE getting to know peapole, I realy do.
To be as honest ast honast can be... what I realy want is to be more respected. I realy lack that in life, I have not asingle person that "respects" me or look up to me. Since I am a lonly child I don't have a younger sister or brother to do that.
Some times you need some respect and admiration. But I have absolutly nothing that peapole can respect. Moast of my friends are respected and admierd becouse of their drawing skills.
But I can't draw, and I don't realy want to ether.
The only thing I actualy coud be respected of is my writing. But that's not to easy ether whit my Dyslexia... You know, in times like this I feel like a useless nobody...
But maby someday... someday...
Anyway... Here is some videoes of my favourite scientist:
He is a famus and respected scientist
mandag 15. august 2011
I feel so bad, my letter to Jenny will be so late! D': Sorry!!! >o<
A few days ago I started watching Hell Girl, it has no blood but ether way it's awesome! I have realy become addicted to Horror Anime :3
Funny, becouse before I used to avoice these things. I wanted nothing to do whit horror and blood. But now I am lusting for it! >:D
This serie is realy addictive! :3
And Lol! I found a Live Action verson! XD
Oh man, just when I though: "I need to listen to more vestern music" I happend to find a new awesome song from my old favourite band:
I supose I DO like rap kinda... Just not the "steriotype" rap or whatever I shoud call it. Not that "Bling-Bling" shit XD I hate that -.-'
onsdag 10. august 2011
Summer end.
Like today where I sleept to 2 PM....
Atleast I did somthing today XD I went to the city to buy letter paper and some gliter and sutch to put on the letters^^
And I brought a little present for Jenny. But I need to figure how to send it by mail though... Her birthday is in two days! D:
I can't whait till winter. Summer is fine but this year I have realy missed winter for some reason... I don't like it beeing to hott I supose. And it's to mutch light at summer up here in the North.
I have truble sleeping. The sun barly slipps down in the horison for 1-2 hurs then it comes up again. And far up in North Norway they have weeks whitout any night.
They have weeks whitout any light at winter, to though. :3
I love how horrible the old stories can be. They woud never tell that kind of stories to children these days, but honastly I think that we a way to protective over hur children these days.
But I love the fact that they never cut out the fact that Askeladden (Ashladd as they call him in Englis-.-') made the troll cut a whole to his own stomac XD
Today's video:
To torment your minds! >:3
Tommorows to do list:
Shower
Write letter to Jenny
Finish my GinjouXIchigo drabbles chapter 1
Continue my orginal story.
I am pretty mellow actualy... Even if I don't seam like it over Intrenett. I don't like doing to mutch XD
tirsdag 9. august 2011
New Blogg!!
Oki! New Blogg! :D
I was previusly using Livejornal, but blogger.com seam faster and more professional. Since I have been writing for a long while I figuerd I shoud start using this one.
I guess the real reason why I wanted to use this site instead is thatI love this sites Picture uploader XD It's fast and I can upload many many pictures. Witch I am pretty obsessed whit :3
Right now I am pretty happy, I just got a letter from my friend Jenny! We have decided to become letter friends :D Even though we live in the same city XD
Her letter where so amaxing Owo It lookes like a pice of Art! I was going to start on my letter to her afther I read it, but then I noticed that I don't have any letter paper!!! D:
Sorry Jenny! If you are reading this I will try to see if I can buy some tomorrow. And I need to find you a birthday present! >//U//< I love giving presents :3
I'm a little down though.... I always post and post in the GinjouXIchigo FC but it seam there are very few active members TT3TT And there are no Art of them latly.... SOMONE GIVE ME A DRAWING OF THEM!!! XD But hey.... hopefully if the Bleach chapters get's better maby more than me and one other will be active XD
Ok, so I do post there a little TO mutch.... But I can't help it. I am obsessed whit them!
Last chapter was kinda.... dissapointing, even if Rukia is back.
Har hair cut looks just like Nozomi and Hanatarou's! >_< But.... She is a vice captain now! /// Ruuukiaaa-chaaann!!! <3
I need to start writing more on my book soon >_> I always hate myself for not doing it... I am almoast done whit the first chapter on my 100 GinjouXIchigo drabbles.
Meaning I have been writing 10 drabbles.... Pretty long drabbles... It was the only way for me to write Fan-Fiction, since I always get new ideas and get bored whit the old ones.
I'm kinda suprised... two Japanese GinjouXIchigo fan artist has begann watching me on Twitter... O3O Makes me happy though. I supose it was becouse I wrote in my Twitter introduction that I loved GinjouXIchigo ///
I love Japanese fan girls... The ones KuuIchi in BA seam to be hot for GinjouXTsukishima to.... (I don't like that pairing... TT3TT) But the Japanese fans are all for GinjouXIchigo only >///< I do love how fathefull the Japanese are!
I write to mutch.... Sorry! /// Those who have read my Journals and my posts in the GinjouXIchigo FC probably allredy know XD
I can't help it, I love to ramble and rant^-^"
Anyway, maby I shoud talk a little abaut my Summer... I have been pretty bizy. First I was on a one week vacation whit my Mom, Grandmom and friend Alida, oh and Usagi was whit us, my bunny :3
But before that it was Desucon! Whitch was awesome, even if I had to leave early becouse I felt sick (I got seriusly ill afther that TT3TT)
Outside whit the Crazy Hetalia cosplayers! XD
I was previusly using Livejornal, but blogger.com seam faster and more professional. Since I have been writing for a long while I figuerd I shoud start using this one.
I guess the real reason why I wanted to use this site instead is thatI love this sites Picture uploader XD It's fast and I can upload many many pictures. Witch I am pretty obsessed whit :3
Right now I am pretty happy, I just got a letter from my friend Jenny! We have decided to become letter friends :D Even though we live in the same city XD
Her letter where so amaxing Owo It lookes like a pice of Art! I was going to start on my letter to her afther I read it, but then I noticed that I don't have any letter paper!!! D:
Sorry Jenny! If you are reading this I will try to see if I can buy some tomorrow. And I need to find you a birthday present! >//U//< I love giving presents :3
I'm a little down though.... I always post and post in the GinjouXIchigo FC but it seam there are very few active members TT3TT And there are no Art of them latly.... SOMONE GIVE ME A DRAWING OF THEM!!! XD But hey.... hopefully if the Bleach chapters get's better maby more than me and one other will be active XD
Ok, so I do post there a little TO mutch.... But I can't help it. I am obsessed whit them!
Last chapter was kinda.... dissapointing, even if Rukia is back.
I need to start writing more on my book soon >_> I always hate myself for not doing it... I am almoast done whit the first chapter on my 100 GinjouXIchigo drabbles.
Meaning I have been writing 10 drabbles.... Pretty long drabbles... It was the only way for me to write Fan-Fiction, since I always get new ideas and get bored whit the old ones.
I'm kinda suprised... two Japanese GinjouXIchigo fan artist has begann watching me on Twitter... O3O Makes me happy though. I supose it was becouse I wrote in my Twitter introduction that I loved GinjouXIchigo ///
I love Japanese fan girls... The ones KuuIchi in BA seam to be hot for GinjouXTsukishima to.... (I don't like that pairing... TT3TT) But the Japanese fans are all for GinjouXIchigo only >///< I do love how fathefull the Japanese are!
I can't help it, I love to ramble and rant^-^"
Anyway, maby I shoud talk a little abaut my Summer... I have been pretty bizy. First I was on a one week vacation whit my Mom, Grandmom and friend Alida, oh and Usagi was whit us, my bunny :3
But before that it was Desucon! Whitch was awesome, even if I had to leave early becouse I felt sick (I got seriusly ill afther that TT3TT)
There where so many by Outland whaiting to lave for Desucon together! I was so glad Roy was there when I came, or else I woud had to stand there all alone whitout knowing anyone D:
Me and some of my friends standing in line XD Yes I slashed their faces! Their Identety is top secret :3
This guys was creepy... and playing his part well XD Me en Roy where joking abaut him going to kill everyone XD ....... I never saw him again at the Con... O3o
Outside whit the Crazy Hetalia cosplayers! XD
I also went to Disneyland paris this summer, whit my Aun, Uncle and their two kids. I don't have any pictures from there though D:
I was at the Norwegian foke museum to, whit my mom. And took many inspiering pics for my book^^
Today's Video:
Raske Menn.... I love them! <3
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