Everyone around you can be so immature and all that, some don't know how to take care of themselvs. I have always feelt kinda outside the normal teenage life.
I am more of a loner, and I never fit quite inn.
The whole party, and lovers, and all that stuff never was me. I am more happy thinking abaut life, listening to music all by myself.
But ofcourse that can get depressing when I am all by myself. Peapole tell me I shoud live life when I can. I will not be a teenager again.
But I say "I don' want to be a teenager, I want to grow up and be a responsibel adult"
No one takes a teenager wanting to be an adult seriusly XD
I do have so many peapole around me trying to help me beeing more..."Normal" and I am realy thankfull, the thing is... I don't realy want to be normal.
I want to be me.
I have been having a rough time latly, all these teenage emotions and mood svings, depression. It's normall for teenagers. But honastly, it's my fault.
I am realy having a hard time beeing happy, and then I end up conplaining and writing emo stuff here in my blogg.
Even if I don't realy WANT to do that. I just want to be happy and energic. So............ Let's try again once more shall we?
I will be happy and optemisic!
You know, every since I was little I always liked beeing whit adult rather than playing whit kids. I think pherhaps I need some adult friends^^ Ofcourse I shoud have soome teenage friends to, but I reealy want some "Alternatve" adult friends.
I realy dubht any of my teenage friends will want to talk abaut me and all my Spiritual and Alien stuff.
I joined the Asthar command crew blogg, pherhaps I can find some good frinds there? I realy hope so, and I realy want to avoid any uncomftable dicussuins!
Love and Space, Kiara-chan!
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