Part 1 Awakening - I am so tierd

I am so tierd: written while crying my eyes out.

I woke up to day, just wanting to cry my eyes out. I am so very tierd, I have lived on this planet in only 17 years, but allredy I am tierd of it.

School: Why? What's the point of it? So I can get a jobb and an education? Why? Will earning money to "survive" realy make me happy, is it what I am realy looking for? NO!

I am sick and tierd in the rules that have been created in this society. You have to get and jobb, earn money for food, live a long life that has just been whaisted in achiving nothing moast in moast of the chases.

If I am going to stay in this place I need a purpose, a REAL purpose. Not just doing what eveyone else does.
Can't othe peaole feel the wrongness in this society? In this entire worlds sociery? What's the point of living if you can't have freedom?

I want to do somthing!! But I am 17, I can't get a jobb yet, everyone aaround me is focing me to go to school witch I have always found conpleatly meaningless!

I want to go home! Oh, I just want to go home! Get me home.

Why does it all have to be so hard for me!? Becouse I MAKE it hard to myself... I am not, I am trying to make it simple. But no one understands.
This world is  a Prison for me. The money system is  prison. You can't go anywhere whitout money, you can't by anything whitout money.
You need  a jobb to get money.

We are so cought up in out own businiss that we have forgott how to actualy live.

I am so sick of it, I am so sick of everyone around me. If I can't go home atleast give me somone from home, becouse I speak a diffrent language than everyone I have met.

I am so alone, I just want some company whit somone that understands!

I had always had so mutch difficulity sochiolicing whit peapole, I am always alone. i am missing a conpany I have never had before, I want to feel that feeling when talking to somone. Like we don't even need to talk becouse we allredy know what the other are feeling.
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Written a little afther:

I coud realy use some real conpany other than myself...

This is how I feel, and this is how I have felt all life, 17 years.

Still.... I know I can do it... But it woud be nice to have some peace once in a while. To see my kind...
I know I am all powerfull, like every beeing in this universe. Everyone can be all powefull if they want. But lonelyness... What am I gonna do abaut that?

I think that's one of those things I just can't do anything abaut. Peapole around me can't fill that lonely gap.

I think I shoud try and find  amedetation class on how to contact your guieds and inner self... That I shoud need.

Other news I just listen to on of the Bashar channelings:

http://www.ashtarcommandcrew.net/video/bashar-i-am-meditation-you-are-special

This realy helped me calm down! Thank you~