STUPID STUPID STUPID WOMAN!!!!

I know I am going to sound extreamly heartless and like and ashole when I write this. But I am very FUCKING TIERD!!!

My Mom is stupid! She is a fucking selfish ashole!!!!! Yes! I think it's selish that she is making herself suffer becouse of MY problems!!
Yeah, I know that she is my mom and all, an that becouse that I havee problems she feels guylty and powerless... But com on! I am s stubborn peace of shit!
The reason I have been struggeling whit school was becouse of the fact that I have Dylexia, wich no one can help, I was born whit it! And SHE feels guylty becouse she coud not do anything abaut that!? THAT'S SOOOOOO STUUUUUUPIIIID!!!!!!
She feels guylty becouse I started skipping school, she feels that everything is HER fault! FUCK YOU!!!! Was it YOUR decision that I started skipping school becouse it was so challeging for me mental and school wise? NO!!! It was MINE!!!

I hink she is SELFISH and SELFHARMING!!! She is STUPID!!! I know she feels a responsibility, and all that. Becouse she is my mom. And she is a realy good mom for feeling that responsibility. But let me tell you this woman. There is NOTHING YOU CAN DO!!! There si NOTHING anybody else can do!!
Becouse this is all my descisions!!! This is all MY life! You can't controll me like a muppet, but if you coud it woud actualy be right to feel sutch a guylt and responsibility!

You know this goes all out on ME!? Yesturday I was so happy, so fulkommen as we say is Norwegian. And today you ruined EVERYTHINg for me Mom! YOU are now making ME suffer!
Just when I though things woud finaly be okay, just when I had  peace in mind... Fucking Bitch!!!
I am not the one having real problems, it's you! And YOU are making ME suffer for YOUR problems!!!

And I know you feel the same way when I am skipping school and all... But I realy can't handel that OKAY!?  I think you are childish and ignorant right now!
And thsi time I want'f Fucking cry for you, you are an asshole!! I won't stuport you in this! I don't want to see you til you are all better!
Becouse that is only gonna make me suffer, and I don't belive I deserve to suffer becouse you are an ignorant jerk!
And you BETTER be able to take care of Usagi! If you make an innocent little purehearted rabbit suffer becouse of you then I will never forgive you!!

I love you mom and I hope you will get better soon, but I don't want to see a depressed and sad fac on you! So I don't want to see you before you are all better! And right now be concern abaut yourself not other. What are you REALY afraid of anyway? You think I just are goiing to die becouse I can't hanle school or somthing?
Trust me I am going to be great! Becouse I want to.
Well... I think it's becouse of me you are like this... If not then I have toaly failed XD

Bashar - There is no real outer reality, the only thing that is actualy real is you'r experiance of things.

This tells me somthing extreamly important. We all see things in diffrent way, we all have "our" experiance of reality.